I Ain't Skeered....

"Always do what you are afraid to do."-- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Life is so funny.

Yesterday, in my blog, I called our Dear Leader impotent and a coward. I argued that he was fearful and therefore, weak.

Well, because the LORD is constantly challenging me and refining me, yesterday, my courage was also called into question and some of my personal fears exposed.

Late yesterday afternoon, as I sat at my desk scanning the news feed of my Facebook account (yes, I sometimes suck as an employee), our office telephone rang.

Here's how the conversation went down:

Me: "Good afternoon, Law Office."

Caller: "May I speak with Maci Newsom?"

Me: "This is Maci."

Caller: "Hi, Maci. My name is Joe Wurzelbacher."

Me: **Silence**

Caller: "Is my name not familiar to you?" 

Me: "No sir..."

Caller: "Well, how about Joe "The Plumber"?" 

Me: **Silence**

Caller: "Maci?"

Me: "Seriously?! Oh my goodness!!" 

And as embarrassing as it is, in the spirit of complete honesty, I think, at some point in the conversation, I may have squealed and giggled like a adolescent girl. 

Yep, I am that sort of idiot.

I won't bore y'all with the details of our conversation, but suffice it to say, it was delightful. For those of you who remember Joe "The Plumber", you will recall that he was a beacon of hope, a voice of common sense and reason during the 2008 presidential election. 

He was an ordinary guy who did something extraordinary. 

If, however, you were too young to vote or living under a rock during the 2008 election period, Joe "The Plumber" Wurzelbacher famously walked up to Barack Hussein Obama, then the Democratic nominee for president, and asked him why he wanted to raise taxes. And there, in that glorious moment, we, the American people, got our first videoed taste of Obama's true ideology. Our future Dear Leader looked at Joe and basically said, "he wanted to spread the wealth". 

There it was. There was the first public admission of our Dear Leader's socialistic mentality. 

So, yeah, I was a little excited to receive a phone call from this very cool man.

During our conversation, he expressed interest in using some of my blog posts on his website, 

Holy guacamole!! 

I won't lie, I was pretty dead-gum flattered. And therefore, my initial response was, "HECK YES!!". 

However, after our good-byes were said and I hung up the telephone, my hands began to sweat, my heart began to race. What in the world just happened? Sheer panic set in as I relayed the excitement of the moment to my sweet, patient husband. 

What if my thoughts, words and opinions, once disseminated to a large audience, created hatred for myself and my family? What if my opinions make me a target? What if my opinions make my family a target? What if people laugh at my writing? What if I say the wrong thing? What if? What if? What if?

Fear. Real fear. Like the kind of fear that paralyzes a person. 

I sort of, kind of, completely freaked out when I considered the reality of what this type of exposure might bring.

So much so, that I thought I would probably call Joe back this morning and decline his extremely humbling request.

But, I decided that I would sleep on it. And as I laid in bed last night and pondered the happenings of the day, I began to pray for wisdom. While I tossed and turned in my cozy, comfy bed, I began to understand the enormous importance of life--of each and every individual life. I began to realize that each person living in this moment of time, has a responsibility to think beyond themselves. I realized, as I laid awake in the darkness of last night, alone with my nighttime thoughts, that this life isn't about me, my family, our gifts or our fears. It is about serving a God much greater than we can imagine. It is about running the race He has laid out before us. It is about finishing strong and with the least amount of regret. 

This life is about taking chances, leaps of faith, seeing beyond the tips of our noses.

When I awoke this morning, pretty darn groggy and terribly cranky, I possessed a firm conviction that in this life, this moment, this beautiful second of time, that there is nothing for me to fear but fear itself. I decided this morning that I was going to be brave and courageous and step outside of my comfort zone.

Essentially, I decided to be what I have spent the last year imploring all of you to be--I decided to be bold. 

As I drove to work this morning, the Christian radio station I listen to was discussing world events and the uncertainty of our times. One of the hosts said, "Remember guys what 2 Timothy 1:7 tells us, "For God hath not given us the spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind". 

Yep, that one was for me.  

You see, we, humanity, have an innate desire for community and companionship because our Creator knew our individual strength and confidence would be greater in numbers. He knew we would encourage and support each other. He knew we would rally behind, beside and in front of our fellow man. He knew some of us would say what needs to be said. He knew others would listen, without judgment or words. He knew others would be a comforting shoulder and a gentle, helping hand. He knew some would lead. He knew some would follow. He knew we would survive and thrive. He knew we would war with each other and strain the bonds of our humanity. He knew we would be gifted, in varying and fascinating ways, so that we could accomplish seemingly impossible tasks and overcome seemingly insurmountable odds. He knew what our inner thoughts would be, what our deepest desires would be, how our weaknesses would manifest and how our strengths would be honed because He uniquely created each of us

So, yeah. I mean, HECK YES!! Yes, to sharing my thoughts. Yes, to saying what needs to be said. Yes, to fighting for what is right. Absolutely, yes, yes, yes!!

I am going to let anyone and everyone who seems interested in my writings and rantings publish them, share them, love them or hate them. 

Because I am confident it will be okay. I am of sound mind. I am no longer fearful of being judged by a reader or disagreeing critic. 

I may be a completely ordinary gal but I am loved and empowered by a completely extraordinary Savior. 

And because of that, I ain't skeered.

And you shouldn't be either.

And because we ain't skeered, we are super-duper powerful. 

Infinitely more powerful than our cowardly president who operates completely and totally in fear. 

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